My first daughter, "JuneBug," is five and starting Kindergarten. My second daughter, Mikayla Sophie, was stillborn at 22 weeks gestation on April 13, 2014. I started this blog as a space to sort out my feelings, and hopefully give encouragement and comfort to others at the same time. It is a work in progress, as am I. I know my heart is under construction, and in His time God will make it something beautiful, but right now it's pretty much a mess.
Thursday, August 21, 2014
Five Minute Friday: Change
Prompt of the week: Change
GO:
It is amazing how quickly your life can change; how a woman can change from longing and hopeful but scared to hope too much, to ecstatic and filled with love and joy in a matter of seconds when those 2 pink lines pop up on the pregnancy test.
Or how she can change from ecstatic and filled with love and joy and hope, to devastated and broken and wondering how this could have just happened when they can't find a heartbeat.
How a missionary can change from being a doctor helping treat victims of an Ebola crisis to being a patient himself.
How an audience can change from seeing a comedian and laughing alongside him to seeing the ugly depths of depression.
How a young man can change from planning his college career to dead on the sidewalk full of bullets in a matter of 3 minutes.
Yes, life can change in an instant, and never be the same again. There are moments that leave you reeling. Change can rip your heart right out of your chest.
But what each life so desperately needs is a change. A change where the heart of stone melts into a heart of flesh.
What this sad and sin-soaked world needs is a change. A change in each individual's heart that will prompt change in a family, a community, a nation, a planet.
And I rest in knowing that NOTHING can change God's love. Not racism or bullets, not depression or suicide, not illness or disease, not stillbirth or aching hearts. God's love is greater than all of it.
God's love is the only thing that will never change. God's love is the only thing that will ever bring the change that we need.
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Beautiful here. Beautiful writing in the midst of grief. And yeah, His unchangeable love - it's what we all need. I'm glad we were next to each other on FMF...Prayers for you tonight as you walk this season.
ReplyDeleteThank you for the encouragement, and especially the prayers! Prayer gets me through each day!
DeletePowerful, honest and I felt every emotion. God's love is our constant amongst the change and He will lead us through when it is reeling out of control. Blessings! Mary
ReplyDeleteoh how my hard heart (so many times) needs those moments of being changed to flesh...but it only happens through HIs molding and shaping. I don't like change, i think it hurts too much sometimes...but the after effects, the new pieces of me that are growing in His grace, i see them as worth the pain, the change. thank you for this and for your reflections on the pain in your own life and in the lives of so many these past several weeks.
ReplyDeleteDear Friend ... I am so sorry for this deepest loss. I can only pray that you will find an unusually strong comfort in the arms of the Lover of your soul. And that your writing will offer you the best of solace and peace.
ReplyDeleteThank you, and God bless!
DeleteIt's my first time here, since I joined 5 minute Friday for the first time...
ReplyDeleteI love your post. How you sum up change by examples is so moving. Life is never the same. Life is change. We better embrace change and move with it. Don't you think? And with that, we embrace our never changing factor... God. And that is worship.
Welcome to FMF!
DeleteIt is so hard to embrace change sometimes, but you're right, God uses even the hardest changes for good.
Your awareness of others' grief as their lives have changed is humbling and inspiring. In your own sadness you see theirs clearly. Thank you for sharing this with us.
ReplyDeleteJuliet
This is lovely and so humbling. In your grief you recognise and honour the grief of others. Thank you for sharing this.
ReplyDeleteJuliet