Thursday, September 25, 2014
Five Minute Friday: Because
Joining the 5-minute flash-write. I look forward to Thursday nights to get me through my week. This week's going to be a rough one, though.
Prompt of the week: Because
So many questions without answers. Why did I start bleeding? Why couldn't the doctors do anything to stop it? Why didn't I go on bed rest sooner? Why didn't I get tested after June Bug's birth? Why did my baby have to die? Why did I never even hold her, or take pictures, or even touch my precious girl? Why did God let me get pregnant again only to take away that baby, too? Why didn't my insurance card come sooner so I could have gone to the doctors sooner to get an action plan before it was too late?
Why do I keep beating myself up over choices I made that were the best I could have done with the knowledge I had at the time?
And the only answer I get is the answer God gave to Job. Because. Because I AM.
Because God is sovereign, and His ways are not my ways. Because the Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away, and all I can do is say, sing, shout, "Blessed be the Name of the Lord!"
Someday I will know the because to all of my whys, but for now I am content to cast all my whys and what ifs on the I AM.